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Jagoda Matusiak – opening up

Video by Jakub Nędza

”For half of my life I was hiding my asymmetrical, crooked body with a hump in oversized clothes or asymmetrical dresses. A bathing suit was just out of the question. For a long time i was tired of thinking – why me? I felt beautiful, but it often took all the joy out of being myself. When i joined BIBIMODELS*, I was still afraid, I’ve been hiding this all my life, and here I actually got a chance to expose it. I started to see that people were more interested, sometimes even inspired, rather than disgusted, as I saw in my head. During the two years of working with BIBIMODELS*, I finally accepted myself, and I was certainly very lucky to meet the people there, who created a space, where you can be yourself and feel special, a space to disenchant complexes and turn them into beauty. Nothing was a more beautiful breakthrough for me than just casually lying on the sand in the sun in a costume with a giant cutout on the back in which nothing could be hidden. That’s when I felt truly free. Even though it hurts sometimes – I love myself this way.”